Nights

I so hate my overnights......I use this ridiculous bipap mask w/ O2 and STILL need nebullizers.  Apparently, apnea is not related completely to asthma....lucky me.  And when I have a sinus infection like now, I wake up, vomit and THEN do the neb...it is so fun to vomit phlem while short of breath...tired of this. 

Had a wonderful time yesterday with family at our potluck dessert...there were some important family members missing (besides my dad) but it was still wonderful.  And hard b/c he was really missed.  We all put on brave faces though and made it through.  Joe is really struggling and I wish I could take some of his pain away.  When he gets this upset he often pulls away and I'm hoping he won't..I'm hoping we can pull each other through this week. 

My mom cries a lot but is handling things okay.  She has a new cat she has to train that is keeping her busy which helps.  He bites.  But is really fun and gives her someone at home to take care of which she needs.  Besides me and the girls. 

I'm not sure what next weekend is going to be like....rough I think but we'll make it through together.  I hope I can keep handling this sinus infection at home...doing okay so far but the weather is getting colder which keeps me inside blech!!!!