Every year for Christmas I give calendars to my mother, MIL, uncle & myself. I make them on snapfish and they are full of pics of the kids and family. I usually taper each calendar for each person, making them all a little bit different. This year was too hard for me. Going through all the pictures of my dad and the pictures of my physical decline was just too hard.
What I'm hoping for this year is that I'll see physical improvement in my pictures. I hoping that instead of looking my best in January and my worst in December of 2011, I'll look so much better by December 2012. I'm not focused on the "vanity" of how I look although that is difficult...for me it's more of the evidence of what the steroids, multiple hospitalizations, BT treatments, and severe asthma has done to me.
It's also going to be tough to not have Dad in my pics this year....miss his so much every day. We are going to Disney in May and going without him will be wonderful and terrible at the same time....
Oh Michelle, I want to give you a big huge hug! How tough, but good for you for not shirking away and actually confronting the reality of the year that was. I hope that this year will treat you better!
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